mojomade: … And Then I Woke Up.

As a style blogger I get the chance to wear the newest of new, most current of current fashion. I could just totally give in to trends and travel along on the surface, with nothing more than beautiful images and links to where you can buy what I'm wearing. But honestly, I couldn't think of anything more boring.

For this post I pulled out some old favourites from Spell Designs and Free People to prove some kind of point, mostly to myself I think… That you don't need the latest and greatest new things on the outside to make you feel great, you just need to know yourself on the inside and the outside will pull itself together…

I spent ages trying to write this post with the right words to explain how my life has shifted from 'stagnant old life' to 'shiny new life'. And I just deleted all the wank I wrote. Because here's all you need to know:

I haven't been completely authentic on this blog.
And frankly, that goes for my music and life in general.
I haven't always given my full self in the way I've wanted to.
Every single aspect of my life was part of some puppet show, where all the strings were being pulled.
I listened to a lot of ~~stupid~~ opinions of a lot of ~~stupid~~ people.
I got caught up in a whole lotta bullshit.
I let go of my spark.
I melted and blurred.
I got lost in some crazy mirror maze with witches and dragons.

And then I woke up.

Basically, before I was living in some Groundhog-Day-type scenario and now I've gotten my lazy ass up off the couch and ejected the video. Yes, that's how old the movie was, it was still VHS. And I'm skipping DVD's and going straight to Blue-Ray. In fact, I'm not even watching a movie anymore - I'm filming my own! You feel me?!

I once heard a story that sums up pretty much where I'm at - but luckily well before I'm on my deathbed! It's believed to be written on the tomb of an Anglican Bishop in the crypts of Westminster Abbey in London, England.

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When I was young and free and my imagination had no limits,
I dreamed of changing the world.
As I grew older and wiser,
I discovered the world would not change,
so I shortened my sights somewhat and decided to change only my country.

But, it too, seemed immovable.

As I grew into my twilight years,
I settled for changing only my family and those closest to me,
but alas, they would have none of it.

And now as I lie on my deathbed,
I suddenly realise:
If I had only changed my self first,
then by example I would have changed my family.

From their inspiration and encouragement,
I would then have been able to better my country and,
who knows, I may have even changed the world.

It's time for me to leave this place and step into the wild unknown. Now that I'm strong enough to let the walls down, I can invite you along for the journey and share it all with bright colours, vivid dreams, deep waters, winding roads, roller coaster highs and extreme adventure sports.

And I plan to look really good while doing it…

Are you with me?